But if someone cares about you as much as they said they did, do you think it’d be so easy for them to leave you alone when they know you’re upset..? Without even trying to comfort you, or let you know that they’re there for you..?

I mean you were only looking out for me right? You’re right, I’m a big dreamer. I shouldn’t have been so happy over nothing, cause it is nothing.. Why would he like me..? You’re right, he probably just had nothing better to do than hang out with me for a little while, cause we all no I’m nothing special and I’m usually only a second option.. And I shouldn’t have found hope in something that little, something that’s nothing.. I do think too much of things sometimes. I should know by now that I’m not worth it, that it’s not gonna get better for me cause there’s no point. I’m not worth even that little bit of hope that I had. People who barely know me keep telling me that things are gonna get better, I just have to have hope, even if it’s little…but you were the closest thing I had to a bestfriend, and even you told me how it is, you told me that I’m making something out of nothing, and reminded me that I’m not good enough. So if you can tell me that, I’m sure everyone else is wrong, things aren’t gonna get better for me, you’re right, things are only gonna get worse and I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up. I’m sorry I’m so difficult, I shouldn’t be upset, I should be used to this by now and be fine, but it’s getting really hard to pretend these days..

But I’ll be just fine..

-Worth It All The While

I don’t know why I’m doing this to myself!D: I have a feeling that next years going to be very stressful! /).(\

Down one for all the hopes and cares. Here’s two, for being unaware That you’re gone. Because before too long you’ll be a memory.

as always, something happens and I start to break down again, and everything goes downhill from there ):